So...

So I think I am getting a little better and become a little better. :) I have been working things hard with my business, been planting some seeds and seeing little sprouts of success already coming up. I feel that I have been blessed so much already and I am very grateful. I have also started reading my inspirational daily book and that is helping me personally, and then studying for the talk I will give in church in about a week and a half. So there is my progress as of yet. I will continue to keep you updated.

It's been awhile...

Well, I'm back. I took a leave of absence from my blog. But I am here again. I need to figure out a way to add this blog to my blogger id. It is kinda of silly that this is under Paul's. Well I don't really have anything specifically I wanted to say, I just wanted to write. It has been much to long. Well it's Sunday night and I can't sleep, though I think I'll give it a second try in just a bit.
Self improvement. That is what I should right on...but I'm not sure what to say, besides I need to do some. ha, yeah, I'm feeling something stirring in me, and it has been stirring for a little while now. I am not sure what it is, but I know I need to change and grow a little more than I have. I feel the need to be more. More spiritual, more loving, more fun, more grateful, more sweet, more...more than I am today. I'm not depressed or feeling down, but on the flip side I don't feel this boost of inspiration... it's just this teeny tiny, deep down, stirring..."be more, Alyssa".
I'll keep you updated on that.

Love

I think I take for granted the beautiful blessings in my life, more than I am truely aware of how blessed I am. The other day for no particular reason I become keenly aware of how incredibly blessed I am to have my forever love. My best friend, my sweet heart, my Paul. So many people in this world are lonely and uncertain if they will ever have the love of their life. I have mine. How great is that? And I have had him for almost 7 years. And on June 5th he will have been my husband for 6 years. That is just amazing to me. We have been through a lot in 6 years. But everything we have been through has made us stronger as individuals and as a couple. I am so madly and deeply in love with my husband. Nothing is better than that. He means the world to me and I would follow him anywhere in the world.

Oh Sugar, Sugar...

Hooray for spa therapies. We started that class tonight and I am oh so happy about it. I got a full 50 min massage (and gave a full 50 min massage) and got to try out a sugar scrub and a salt scrub. My hands and arms feel divine. :) I am going to have to get a full body one some day. Oh and I was so worn out when I went to class. That helped so much! But now I must go to sleep, so I am not so tired tomorrow.
Good night.

"Yes Man"

So I watched "Yes Man" the movie at school today...It was a "good, but..." movie. So if they still do those clean flicks movies I would rent it from there if you don't appreciate random swear words, and horny grandmas...yes, yes it is as bad as it sounds. But other wise it was actually a very sweet movie with a good moral for life. "Say YES to life". Do things, try on that dress you think is hott, but you don't think you can pull it off, grow a garden, write a book, go to that museum you heard about, take piano, art, photography, singing, flying, or whatever the heck you want lessons. Be more fun with your kids, and nice to your spouse. Be silly and spontaneous. Learn a skill, take a risk, serve someone. It is just way to darn easy to get STRESSED OUT, and WORN OUT! But there is never more time tomorrow. You will always be as busy or even more busy tomorrow. So do it today. As you know, I am really talking to myself, but it really helps to write it out...and I can't find that darn journal of mine...
Anyway...that is what I took from that movie. I loved the silliness in that movie. It reminded me of younger, more carefree times. But what the heck? I'm not even 25 yet. So why do I act like such an old fart sometimes? I mean I do have my little spurts of crazy silliness, but not enough of those times are with my kids and husband. And I really want them to be. So boys, I am going to be better. In fact, I think I will become a YES MOMMY and a YES WIFE tomorrow. Let's see what happens. :)

So don't you hate it when you notice something good your spouse does and then the next thing you notice coming out of your mouth is what they did wrong about what they did to help? I did that twice yesterday! Ugh, I hate it when I do that, and then instead of saying sorry, I just keep going on about it, and then say something lame like, "well thanks for helping..." or worse "it's your responsibility too" . I'm thinking I should really be nicer to my husband. Especially since I know he is stressed out of his mind right now... See the thing is I want to be nice. I think about being nice, but then before I know it I am saying not so nice things. And thinking about being nice doesn't cut it. Why is it the hardest to be consistently nice to the person you love most?
On a different note, I just got my paper done for school. I'm glad that is over with, now I just have to study, make something for tonight's pot luck, and get ready. I have an hour and a half. Ready go.

So I realized I need to make my own blogger ID or whatever it is, because I am doing this under Paul's and it sorta looks like he is writing to himself...I swear he isn't crazy it is me, Alyssa.

So I just did something a little scary, but I am feeling brave. I hope it turns out right.

I love my Savior and His church. I am going to be better at standing up for truth.

The Creation

Well since I rarely see my husband and he rarely sees me. I figured I would start communicating with him in a fairly indirect way...this here blog. Never had a blog. Never really wanted one. But I just finished listening to something he had on the computer. He had recorded himself like a little talk show. I enjoyed listening to his thoughts on several different topics ranging from sports to spiritual. So I want to do the same for him. Though I will not address these posts to him. Instead of writing something to him, I just want to write my thoughts and maybe he will enjoy reading them. So Paul this is for you, and anyone else who may be reading.